The lowest most depressing time of my life was the day I learnt that my fiancé had been unfaithful to me. It was a Wednesday evening and preparation were underway for the ruracio on Saturday. My pastor and his wife sent for us,they needed to meet with us before the big day. Little did I know that they had received disturbing claims from a lady in church. It was then that I heard words that felt like a knife going through my heart ‘I have been sleeping with her’ I could hardly hear anything else that was spoken after that. My body went numb, I lost every ability to react, I couldn’t even cry.I had canceled another wedding about two years back, I couldn’t believe this was happening again.
That night I went home and bluntly announced to my parents that the function was canceled and that I wasn’t getting married, then I locked myself in my room and finally broke down,the pain of betrayal and loss was overwhelming. The days to come proved to be even more difficult. Having to go to work and facing my friends and relatives became a nightmare, and worst of all was the thoughts in my mind, that I was cursed and that I would spend the rest of my life alone.
When eye bags started forming under my eyes I knew I had to stop the crying. I turned to the Bible and it became my sole refuge. In it I found such comforting words,promises that would give me such hope and peace.I began writing verses down on paper and sticking them on the walls. I spoke them out loud over and over again. Then every morning as I walked to work I would mutter these words to myself ‘I am happy!, I am blessed!, I am fortunate and to be envied!No good thing will He withhold from me!’. I didn’t feel it, but I said it anyway,everyday. I had made up my mind that I would receive what God was saying was mine and I knew that I had to fight for it. The battle is always in the mind.
Two years later I walked down the aisle to the most amazing man I know and have been happily married for 7years now.
The song ‘Uwezo Wako ‘is based on this experience. Every promise in the Bible is really yours, all you have to do is to believe it and fight to receive it.